In my last blog I spoke about allowing life to flow “through you, with you, for you”. Today I want to talk about the “with you” part.
Here’s the thing my darling, you are an epic combination of a star gazed lover, the totality of the universe, living through the meat suit experience of you… the “for you” part of this journey.
The “through you” part is the star gazed lover, the spark of light that creates, the universe, God/Goddess, Source, having an experience of physical manifestation.
Now the WITH you part, this is where it gets so delicious. Darling, source, which I love to call the star gazed lover - blame it on my human hopeless romantic to name it that because Love is a frequency that propels all things. Passion, love, the force of creation … my inner star gazed lover, is my inner being. My inner being is all that is, living through me, with me, for me … for I am it.
I know I am, therefore it is for me. But, this force is living alongside WITH me, as it is you.
I challenge you drop your fears for a few minutes and ponder this. If my, your, our inner being is the star gazed lover (I like to call it my SGL) holds the key to all that is. So why is it that when we have a dream, a desire, we struggle to attain it, to feel it, to experience it?
Are you ready to attain it all?
Pffff damn straight you are!
As I shared in my last blog, “Through you, with you, for you” I had one shit show of year in 2018. Looking from the outside, it appeared as though I lost everything, but I truly gained it all darling. Ready for juicy details?
I left that shit-tac relationship in April (let me just state that now we are friends and after going through the storm I have so much appreciation for him and yes I am beyond grateful for our time together). Here is what I didn’t know going through it …
I needed to learn a few things about what type of lifestyle I wanted. My personal life with career and finances has been a literal yo-yo. Each experience bringing me closer to the awareness of where my hidden talents are as well as how much I love f***ing money. Or so I thought. Over the years, I have had as many career shifts as I have had lovers … well maybe the other way around but who’s counting?
Each one, career and dick, I knew within, that this wasn’t quite it. Close though and I believed maybe if I tried a little harder maybe it would be, but meh, there was just something missing. I now know what.
Throughout all of these experiences, I was getting annoyed with the “lack lustre” that my inner star gazed lover was feeling. The annoyed feeling was because I wasn’t allowing my SGL to live with me. I was allowing my mind, my ego to lead the way. I had this belief that if I tried just a little harder, it should happen, right then and there. Yes, patience is a venture, one I struggled with.
I also mentioned in my last blog what the download taught me what “through you, with you, for you” meant and here today. I want to share with you how the “with” part changed my world, brought me a new string of clients, a new and forever love, a new sense of freedom and even a new level of “hot damn I love my body”.
My inner star gazed lover is living life through me, as much as I am through it, therefore, it is living with me, as I am it. We are one, we are with each other co-creating. Let that sink in. This means that the only thing blocking what my SGL desires as much as my meat suit does, is in fact my meat suit, my thoughts, my humanness. Here’s where it gets so good, let's flip back to my experience.
I will start with love. My whole life I knew “he” existed. As I have shared in many of my blogs, there was this gnawing within me, that each relationship was close to what I wanted, but there was always something missing. After the break up in April, I had a few short term connections that were almost perfect. Life circumstances however made it clear that this wasn’t it, yet. Over the years, I have spent countless hours daydreaming about what “he” would feel like and how it would happen. As time passed, my SGL felt him, as did I and this caused me to begin searching for him, almost desperate to feel his embrace. Every date with my best listening ears on and biggest list of questions I would dig deep in anticipation that maybe, finally this would be him. It began to ache within my heart and I found myself having an emotional pity party one day in front of my mentor Faro. After he was done laughing at me, he promised me that he saw him as well and reminded me to just let go and allow.
What I didn’t know at the time was all along my SGL was guiding the way and the only thing blocking it was me.
The end of September I decided to let several airplane tickets become my boyfriend instead. I still knew within that “he” existed, but I was so tired of looking for him. I can seriously laugh at myself now over this. Once I allowed my meat suit to stop obsessing over it, it literally happened like magic. I met “him” and holy shitballs it is beyond what I thought it would be. Way beyond. Years of watching romance movies, daydreaming and listening to love songs, can’t even compare to the reality of what this relationship, this experience is.
I am not saying any of this to brag, only to tell you that if you feel it and ache for it as bad as I did, it is because your SGL wants that experience WITH you. Therefore, it can happen.
When I fully discovered what “with you” meant, my world changed and everything has now fallen into place.
Okay, I gotta brag just for a second! “He” has shown me a love that even the movies are unable to show. We mirror each other perfectly and yet we are eggzackly within what the other is not. I am the moon and he is the sun yet I am the day and he is the night. Both of us experiencing a love that has no boundaries, no conditions, no expectations, and yet a connection that feels like the rain we have both been thirsting for, making it impossible to conceive that we were ever apart.
This, as well as everything else that has transpired (I will share how this applies to loving your body in the next blog) has all taken place because of the awareness of my SGL living “with” me.
When you can calm the brain, the thoughts, you allow space for your SGL to hold you, walk with you, create with you, lead you, allow you, show you and fully embody you. When you are stuck in thought, in ego, you prevent your SGL from working “with” you to create the true desires it has been showing you all along.
Your SGL is you, the only separation is thought. Give yourself permission to pause the thought and you give yourself permission to fully create.
Until next time,
I love you. Madly.
Christine
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